checking other people's email is a bad habit. i know. i'm sorry.
i'm watching tell me you love me and it's cliche, but understanding human sexual nature a lot better. of course it takes an hbo show.
it's hard to stay on track. like, really hard. i've noticed a sick pattern of losing all ambition for progress in my life unless i am currently furious at someone for letting me down. then i get a thought going persistently, "i don't need them. i'm going to make something so much better for myself."
but then someone actually comes through for me and i let dreams go to dust instead of planting anything. shit.
i should change.
i should go to the gym.
at least i took down the mildewed shower liner yesterday.