well, last night i was just alone and fucked up on anger and alcoholic revelations. at least i was a little bit eloquent. i wanted to sleep all morning but the bright sun woke me up. why weren't you out yesterday, when nick and i took pictures? we walked so far to try and catch you.
elusive glimpses of what could be. like rays of sun shining on power wires lit against a blue storm sky.
i'm listening to jesus and mary chain. teenage lust. she knows what she's doing. drinking earl grey tea out of the favorite cup that can't go in the microwave because of the gold edging. it is chinese with deer and peaches on it.
i have to go to therapy later, for the first time in three weeks, but before doing that i want to buy some apples, take some more autumn cliche pictures because when autumn passes and i realize i don't have my typical orange leaves on the ground pictures i get morbidly sad. run on sentences are the norm these days.
i saw the darjeeling limited last night and really liked it. i had to pee really badly but i stuck it out. i want adrian brody. almost as bad as i had to pee.
nine million rainy days
have swept across my eyes
thinking of you
and this room becomes a shrine
thinking of you
and the way you are
sends the shivers to my head
you're going to fall
you're going to fall down dead
as far as i can tell
i'm being dragged from here to hell
and all my time in hell
is spent with you
i have ached for you
i have nothing left to give
for you to take
i have no more empty heart
or limbs to break
and the way you are
sends the shivers to my head
you're going to fall down dead
as far as i can see
there is nothing left of me
and all my time in hell
was spent with you
-jesus and mary chain, nine million rainy days