11.28.06 : 12:56 am i just want to write a lot song: i hope that i don't fall in love with you, tom waits never home anymore. showers at his place and stacks of my dirty clothes in corners of his room. buying groceries that i can eat. banana juice and gluten free blueberry waffles. orange roughy fish and artichokes. nag champa candle burning in an azure glass cup that looks as though i pulled it from a dream. flashbacks to that day at the lake when we took a boat ride to the milky jade green water. did that dream mean this? i wanted to think it that day but i didn't let myself. when we first kissed a month ago i was very scared. now we are in love and i wonder when it will be over. i wish i could avoid thinking about the future. i don't like endings. and i like consistency. the good news is that he took that thought out of my head the other night when he said those exact words. i have security issues. nothing new. just read back in this thing. 7 years of it..... my my my. << >>