09.15.06 : 10:31 pm i just made a decision not to talk about relationships like they limit you in some way. there is no reason why romance and freedom cannot mix. in fact, a beautiful idea of a relationship is one that is free from dependency and obligation. you can still love someone without needing their presence or materials every day.----- and if you are in love with him, you just cannot understand him. ----- eating outside on a silver wire table under a painted covered deck in purple and lime green. lanterns strung high and the sound of water ceaselessly flowing in a decorative fountain. i listened to boards of canada and re-read kitchen by banana yoshimoto for the third time. my mind would not stop jabbering at me so reading something comforting seemed like the best solution. i ate salad ('no spinach' signs were everywhere, and i had no idea what was going on until now) and drank cranberry lime juice and finished with key lime pie. << >>