08.09.06 : 11:47 pm how do i learn from the past instead of just dwelling on it and/or doing the complete opposite: forgetting everything that happened, good and bad, in an effort to remove the pain. c is now dating a celebrity which is a concept so alien to me that i am having a hard time quieting the thoughts in my head which are thusly bringing up memories, unearthing them from the hard earth which is the vault for everything i have ever shared with anyone. all of the ideas we ever shared. c was so hopeful for us, yet completely backwards in his attitudes while we were dating. it was like dating twins, which i guess, it was. gemini, right? right. we had plans to travel to italy and portugal and spain together. i guess they went away when we stopped being a couple. one year ago. after so many of these diary entries written about how badly he was at communicating and giving me anything i wanted at the right time, i decided that i was half over him anyway. now i'm having to confront all of these things. this is what happens when you don't deal with feelings when you should. or is this normal? i have dated three people since him. i have not succeeded with anyone the way i did with him. i have looked for stability yet until i find it within myself, no one else can help. << >>