so, it's like i told this guy;
some days i am heavy with the desire for a relationship again. but what i am ignoring is that my fantasies of being with someone are unrealistic because they are too perfect. images of us knowing exactly what we want from eachother, no misunderstandings, everything already established. that's not how it would be, i bypassed the whole scary first phase of it all. so, sure, i would like to be with someone. in fact i really do have my eye on someone at work (except he's 31).
i guess i know what i want, but at the same time, i am too tired to work for it? none of this is a big deal right now. this is a good time in my life to take a break from people.
it has rained all day and i think i cut off about 7 inches of my hair. it looks good and i feel lighter. i hope this weekend works out.